“I got no excuses
For all of these goodbyes
Call me when it’s over
‘Cause I’m dying inside
Wake me when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it’s over
And myself has reappeared”

Like most of the world, I was a little jilted by the news of Demi’s overdose. Over the past year I have began to follow her more closely than usual and she became one of my favorite celebrities. Her grungy and glamorous don’t-eff-with-me-vibe and insane voice made me gravitate towards her; I was also blown away with her performance of ‘Stone Cold’ at the Billboard Music Awards.

I like Demi because she’s awesome. I knew she struggled with addiction and that was simply a part of her. However, I know people who love Demi because she legitimately saved them, and I can only imagine how jilted they now are.

“I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know why
I do it every, every, every time
It’s only when I’m lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave
And I don’t wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I’m lonely”

It’s a little ironic that I posted yesterday about celebrities and the way they are perceived by the media for what they are: as characters. Demi Lovato is different from other public figures who have struggled with addiction because of the transparency of her battle. Most celebrities would not be so open to sit down in an interview and say, “The last time I did an interview this long I was on cocaine”.

I’m referring to the opening scene of her documentary, “Simply Complicated”, which I almost immediately watched after hearing the news of her overdose. After seeing it, I was in awe of how much she had overcome.

It’s rare that a celebrity is as transparent as Demi is in that documentary. She failed but then she overcame her failures and she wants to show other people they can do the same.

But then she failed again, and she warned us about it.

“Momma, I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore
And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me
We’ve been down this road before
I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore”

When Demi released, “Sober”, just a month ago, it was safe to assume she had relapsed, but a lot of people also assumed it was just a powerful ballad to others who have fallen off the wagon. Kris Jenner would probably call it an almost too perfect marketing technique. But now it seems it was a cry for help.

I look back on her battle with the disease and am amazed at how strong and open she has been. There is so much hate, negativity, and blame in the world, and the public is so quick to kick people when they’re down. Demi’s six years of sobriety are not erased now, they simply become a chapter and motivation to get back to where she was.

“I’m sorry to my future love
For the man that left my bed
For making love the way I saved for you inside my head
And I’m sorry for the fans I lost
Who watched me fall again
I wanna be a role model
But I’m only human”

I hope instead of judging or shaming, people can admire her previous strength, and will her the want and ability to regain it.

“I’m sorry that I’m here again
I promise I’ll get help
It wasn’t my intention
I’m sorry to myself“